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    Barely..

    Sunday, April 17, 2011
    I dunno from where to start, just wanna let my finger type these all.
    honestly, I often feelin' like this.. confused, anxiety, thrill, grinning, suddenly crying, but also happy in the same time. okay, let say it in simple sentence.. "I'm in love"
    but as usual, when I'm in love... it rarely ending with... "happiness"
    is it wrong if I'd wishing I'll have a mate (boyfriend) in my birthday? coz I've been single for almost 1 year.
    at least, I wish my "gebetan" or someone I like will more closer w/ me.
    I want Katya!
    a boy who officially has steal my heart since April 11th 2011.
    a boy who made me laugh, grinning, & helped me do the exam (uts).
    a boy who have a long talk with me 5 days consecutively.
    coz believe it or not, so far I had through my senior high school time.. I've never been so close w/ any boy, even in my class. poor me. therefore, I'm fallin' love easily with Katya.
    and fortunately I adore him since semester 1. but previously,  I just adore him. then now it changed into more.

    I even still remember our conversation. oh my God... I'm afraid if I really really fall in love w/ you.
    cause I knew it will be hurt me so bad.
    you'll never notice me...  an ordinary girl who not pretty, not smart & not rich. I'm nothing.
    and now I missing you so much. time together just for 5 days isn't enough.  it felt weird when suddenly I had to be alone......
    I have to through my holiday without seeing you there... I'm used to be always seen you come late to school. and now? I can't.
    I'm afraid if I see you again next time in school, you're acting like you don't know me :'-{
    please, I'm begging you... I wish we will always be in good relationship.
    and before I had too much hoping you'll be mine, I have to stop those love struck.
    cause I barely loved you.... and I don't want to be the one who will be hurt.


    strength.

    Wednesday, April 6, 2011
    allhamdulillah ya Allah. you had given me endless blessings.
    even grateful isn't enough to described how's my feeling all this time. everytime, every minutes, every hours, everyday, every single choices I had choose, every step on my way, every tears that fell down, every blessedness & many more. everything You gave to me, God. everything!
    I'm so sorry for any complaint that comes from my mouth. I knew I don't even deserved to expect Your forgiveness.
    dear God, I had so much fun today. especially when my strength has back! coz I'm not doing any pencak silat exercises for more than 3 weeks & its about 7 times exercises I'd missed.
    I've just lost my passion for several weeks. and....damn.... I must confess. I lost my passion because of him. how fool I am.
    I just can't stop thinking of him. I knew it doesn't even worth, but..... I just don't know why.
    I'm on progress, built a wall to against my feeling. I can't stand it, I hate when I'm goin' dumb 'caused of sucks love.
    indeed, I can't seem to find myself. fear, worry & anxiety that taking over my mind.
    in which, April comes with its beauty & luck. I'm gettin' more thrill. aging is on his way. H-20 to my Birthday.
    all that I can said, I wish all my hope & dreams & everything I thought will come true.
    I knew everything we had thought, we had built in our mind, sooner or later will be come true.
    we just have to wait, let God do His job and you keep praying....then God would giving :')



    10.

    Monday, March 21, 2011
    hello mine there! its funny how I always thinkin' 'bout you. I've been here, tweeting, messing around with meaningless tweets. galau-ism. *gak suka liat tweets gua galau ? timpukin aqua gelas aja*
    hm. I knew. always knew. that. no. more. chance. to. be. with. you.  *sengaja setiap kata dikasih titik jadi seakan-akan gua bacanya berat emang berat tau bacanya!!! :'( gitu sambil menghela napas sambil berenang minum air makan indomie (?)*

    its about 212 days being single. I know it doesn't matter because I still had my besties here with me to cheer me up. but no, no its not about it that I want to discuss here.
    just wanna spend my time, remind me again with all those memories with you. I know that probably unnecessary.  very unnecessary to explain how I still stuck here. and it wouldn't couldn't change everything.
    but I just don't know why. your face still remains. your funny behavior. lo! lo bener-bener udah ngambil alih pikiran gua!

    jujur, gua. masih. ngarepin. lo. balik. lagi. sama. gua. ya. walaupun. gua. tau. lo. kayanya. gamau. ya. karena. lagi-lagi. masalahnya. adalah. perbedaan. agama.
    but. did 'cha know?! gua bener-bener belom bisa. lupain lo.
    kalau pun ada keinginan gua buat deket sama yg lain. udah. udah deket tapi tetep aja kayanya lo masih irreplaceable.
    like lady antebellum lyric, "opening up has always been the hardest thing"
    I just can't find a way to let go of you.
    dan mood untuk deket sama cowok lain juga udah ilang. ilang bgt. kalo gini caranya, gua bisa jadi suka beneran sama cewek! *gak kok gak bakal, ini cuma kata-kata basic mengancam wkwk*
    hm. gua bingung. gua maunya apa. mau balikan sama lo? hm gua ragu juga soalnya percuma kalo balikan trus pacaran lagi ntar gua dicuekin lg kan males bgt gada upgrade nya dong itu mah TT_TT
    tapi gak balikan juga berarti gua harus siap. siap kalo ntar lo suka sama orang lain, trus jadian sam orang lain dan bla bla bla. duh siap gak ya gua?
    sedangkan kalo gua yg move on. mau move on sama siapa? kayanya gada yg menarik lagi didunia ini. dan lagi gua yakin cowok pasti gamau pdkt sm cewek yg bahkan belom bisa lupain mantannya. terus? gua harus gimana dong. yailah rempong bgt da..da....-_-"

    I shouldn't have walked away. I would've stayed if you said. We could've made everything OK.

    "from my prohibitive expectations. you're the one who made my spirit but also sadness in the same time. {10}

    Devian.

    Sunday, March 6, 2011
    Assalamualaikum ukhti akhi, para pembaca (pengen banget dibaca deh da-_- padahal gak mutu)
    gua kembali bukan untuk menggalau, ohiya cuma pengen menghibur diri hmmmm GUA AKAN BERUSAHA, MELUPAKAN BLOG YG BIKIN GUA GALAU TERSEBUT. dan SI EMPU-NYA BLOG. daaaaan berhenti berharap seperti lagunya Marcell. daaaaaaaan agak melenceng dari topik utama gapapa kan ya? maaf ya. hm OI KALO DISANA GUA JUGA BAKAL MINTA TANDA TANGAN LO OI!!! gila ya makin eksis aja lo disana, gua semakin miris ckck lo pasti disana makin banyak penggemar ye AAAAAAA ENVY BGT!
    *oke da stop da* *sigh*

    udeeh ah daripada ntar galau lg sedih lg najis lu da cengeng bgt-___- ayo kita simak cerita gua yg lain aja :D

    jadi beginilah kehidupan gua. well setelah mengalami galau tingkat kodok terbang ke pluto *behh tinggi bgt kan pemirsa?* *berarti gua galaunya bukan parah lg* *ahelah yauda sih penting amat lo curhat gitu da-_---*
    pertengahan februari kemarin sampai awal gua full hang out terus.
    dan duit pun mengalir udah kaya apaan tau, dan herannya... ngalir sih ngalir entah itu rejeki dateeeeeng mulu haha alhamdulillah, ya tapi duitnya kepake juga, gak sempet ditabung (emang pernah gitu da lo nabung?) *iye gua tau emg gak pernah*
    sungguh remaja devian. ckck

    1.  dimulai dari pergi observasi biologi di Kebun Raya Bogor, pada tanggal 21feb2011.

    pemandangan yg sangat mengganggu bukan? seorang cewek dengan pose najongnya, sambil nyengir kaya kuda

    ok to be honest, ini mah kebanyakan foto-fotonya ketimbang belajar biologinya-_- hehehe biasalah namanya juga remaja wkwk.-____- *timpuk truk gandeng*
    dibumbui dengan banyak intrik, dari mulai berantem cuma gara-gara angkot-_- eh yg berantem bukan gua dan CBBRS loh yah. kami mah cinta damai '-'V

    NB: CBBRS dahulu bernama GOSOS, dan bukanlah suatu geng atau kelompok semacamnya. cuma teman sepermainan yg kebetulan emang sering jalan bareng dan kebetulan juga satu kelas.


    2.  next,  Birthday Party Treat-nya Danastri Cintantya hehehehe (23feb2011)
    INI DIA BEST COUPLE CEWEK X-E : INTAN feat. TALITHA. *bukan, kami sama sekali bukan pasangan lesbi. lagian kasian intannya kalo lesbi sm gua-_-*

     ceritanya kita mo bikin surprise buat si intan, eh tapi malah gagal gitu haha. gara-gara zara ngilang dan nyasar, gak tau jalan ke TIS SQUARE. alamak-_-" trus kue yg dibawa zara juga amburadul, duh kesian juga si zara ye naik motor sendirian gitu. maap ye tan gak sukses surprise nya, mana kuenya juga kita-kita juga yg makan hehe peace nengbro '-'V

    3. terakhir, pada 4maret2011 gua, Nadya Nur Kusumo, Chandrika Gayatri, dan juga bersama si hulk --> Binnur Sakti, spend our time together at JJF :)
      Chandrika, Nadya, and...... me
     ini si Binnur. kerjaanya ngilaaaaaang terus, suka lepas dari barisan. berasa jadi babysitter bgt nih, kemana-mana harus jagain makhluk satu ini. mana pas nonton Sondre Lerche HPnya pake ilang segala


    menyenangkan sekali nonton JJF ya, alhamdulillah bgt lah. yg gua tonton cuma fourplay, brian culbertson, apalagi deh tuh gua lupa hmmm sondre lerche, blp, calvin jeremy, aduh dll lah.  walaupun gak dapet Endah N' Resha karena Hall nya khusus 18th keatas. dan Sondre Lerche nya rame pisan, desek-desekan jadi gua gak nonton ampe abis, langsung ngejar BLP. tapi subhanallah Marcell nya pooool dari awal sampe abis haha gila bgt dah tuh manusia ganteng-_-" nyanyinya menghayati bgt, apalagi pas lagu Candu Asmara.. beeeehhh aduh ntar deh gua upload videonya menyusul yaaa.
    tapi bete nya gak sempet foto banyak2, first...gua gak bawa kamera. daaaan hanya bisa mengandalkan BB chandrika&nadya saja. ya tau diri lah masa iya gua foto banyak bgt di hp orang-_- 
    ohiya sebenernya juga malem itu rada kelabu coy, galau pisan! siapa lg kalo bukan.........ngegalauin si bassis berkacamata tersebut. padahal gua berharap banyak atas kedatangan dia, biasanya dia selalu nonton JJF dan selalu 3 days. tp entah kenapa tahun ini (dan kebetulan saat gua juga dateng)  dia malah gak dateng. oh well.... itu sudah kehendak Tuhan ya :')
    *jujur gua sebenernya bukan seorang jazz-ers (?) iya, gua cuma penggemar segala musik kecuali dangdut ya*


    jadi intinya, gua sangat atau bahkan terlalu sering hang out akhir-akhir ini. tapi sedih bgt karena giliran pas mau ketemuan sama Kecebong adaaaaaaaaa aja halangannya. terakhir gua cuma ketemuan sm eldi jumat lalu di Sevel Matraman dan sisanya ngabisin waktu seharian dengerin curhatan dia-_-"
    maaf bgt ya Kecebongkuuuuu aku juga kangen bgt sama kalian, tp mungkin emang belom bisa ketemu. selain duit gua jg udah abis hahaha trus juga bentar lg mau UTS, nyokap udah ngomel-ngomel terus :(

    ehiya kalo dipikir-pikir juga, sama sekali gada latar dan alesan gua buat galau atau merasa pathetic. look out girl! gila lo! banyak banget disini temen-temen lo yg sayang sm lo, BANYAK! jadi buat apa mikirin cowok? buat apa galau? ckck. ayo elda there's a whole world around us just waiting to be explored! :D

    ok, me, Talitha. SIGN OUT.



    Sunday, April 17, 2011

    Barely..

    I dunno from where to start, just wanna let my finger type these all.
    honestly, I often feelin' like this.. confused, anxiety, thrill, grinning, suddenly crying, but also happy in the same time. okay, let say it in simple sentence.. "I'm in love"
    but as usual, when I'm in love... it rarely ending with... "happiness"
    is it wrong if I'd wishing I'll have a mate (boyfriend) in my birthday? coz I've been single for almost 1 year.
    at least, I wish my "gebetan" or someone I like will more closer w/ me.
    I want Katya!
    a boy who officially has steal my heart since April 11th 2011.
    a boy who made me laugh, grinning, & helped me do the exam (uts).
    a boy who have a long talk with me 5 days consecutively.
    coz believe it or not, so far I had through my senior high school time.. I've never been so close w/ any boy, even in my class. poor me. therefore, I'm fallin' love easily with Katya.
    and fortunately I adore him since semester 1. but previously,  I just adore him. then now it changed into more.

    I even still remember our conversation. oh my God... I'm afraid if I really really fall in love w/ you.
    cause I knew it will be hurt me so bad.
    you'll never notice me...  an ordinary girl who not pretty, not smart & not rich. I'm nothing.
    and now I missing you so much. time together just for 5 days isn't enough.  it felt weird when suddenly I had to be alone......
    I have to through my holiday without seeing you there... I'm used to be always seen you come late to school. and now? I can't.
    I'm afraid if I see you again next time in school, you're acting like you don't know me :'-{
    please, I'm begging you... I wish we will always be in good relationship.
    and before I had too much hoping you'll be mine, I have to stop those love struck.
    cause I barely loved you.... and I don't want to be the one who will be hurt.


    Wednesday, April 6, 2011

    strength.

    allhamdulillah ya Allah. you had given me endless blessings.
    even grateful isn't enough to described how's my feeling all this time. everytime, every minutes, every hours, everyday, every single choices I had choose, every step on my way, every tears that fell down, every blessedness & many more. everything You gave to me, God. everything!
    I'm so sorry for any complaint that comes from my mouth. I knew I don't even deserved to expect Your forgiveness.
    dear God, I had so much fun today. especially when my strength has back! coz I'm not doing any pencak silat exercises for more than 3 weeks & its about 7 times exercises I'd missed.
    I've just lost my passion for several weeks. and....damn.... I must confess. I lost my passion because of him. how fool I am.
    I just can't stop thinking of him. I knew it doesn't even worth, but..... I just don't know why.
    I'm on progress, built a wall to against my feeling. I can't stand it, I hate when I'm goin' dumb 'caused of sucks love.
    indeed, I can't seem to find myself. fear, worry & anxiety that taking over my mind.
    in which, April comes with its beauty & luck. I'm gettin' more thrill. aging is on his way. H-20 to my Birthday.
    all that I can said, I wish all my hope & dreams & everything I thought will come true.
    I knew everything we had thought, we had built in our mind, sooner or later will be come true.
    we just have to wait, let God do His job and you keep praying....then God would giving :')



    Monday, March 21, 2011

    10.

    hello mine there! its funny how I always thinkin' 'bout you. I've been here, tweeting, messing around with meaningless tweets. galau-ism. *gak suka liat tweets gua galau ? timpukin aqua gelas aja*
    hm. I knew. always knew. that. no. more. chance. to. be. with. you.  *sengaja setiap kata dikasih titik jadi seakan-akan gua bacanya berat emang berat tau bacanya!!! :'( gitu sambil menghela napas sambil berenang minum air makan indomie (?)*

    its about 212 days being single. I know it doesn't matter because I still had my besties here with me to cheer me up. but no, no its not about it that I want to discuss here.
    just wanna spend my time, remind me again with all those memories with you. I know that probably unnecessary.  very unnecessary to explain how I still stuck here. and it wouldn't couldn't change everything.
    but I just don't know why. your face still remains. your funny behavior. lo! lo bener-bener udah ngambil alih pikiran gua!

    jujur, gua. masih. ngarepin. lo. balik. lagi. sama. gua. ya. walaupun. gua. tau. lo. kayanya. gamau. ya. karena. lagi-lagi. masalahnya. adalah. perbedaan. agama.
    but. did 'cha know?! gua bener-bener belom bisa. lupain lo.
    kalau pun ada keinginan gua buat deket sama yg lain. udah. udah deket tapi tetep aja kayanya lo masih irreplaceable.
    like lady antebellum lyric, "opening up has always been the hardest thing"
    I just can't find a way to let go of you.
    dan mood untuk deket sama cowok lain juga udah ilang. ilang bgt. kalo gini caranya, gua bisa jadi suka beneran sama cewek! *gak kok gak bakal, ini cuma kata-kata basic mengancam wkwk*
    hm. gua bingung. gua maunya apa. mau balikan sama lo? hm gua ragu juga soalnya percuma kalo balikan trus pacaran lagi ntar gua dicuekin lg kan males bgt gada upgrade nya dong itu mah TT_TT
    tapi gak balikan juga berarti gua harus siap. siap kalo ntar lo suka sama orang lain, trus jadian sam orang lain dan bla bla bla. duh siap gak ya gua?
    sedangkan kalo gua yg move on. mau move on sama siapa? kayanya gada yg menarik lagi didunia ini. dan lagi gua yakin cowok pasti gamau pdkt sm cewek yg bahkan belom bisa lupain mantannya. terus? gua harus gimana dong. yailah rempong bgt da..da....-_-"

    I shouldn't have walked away. I would've stayed if you said. We could've made everything OK.

    "from my prohibitive expectations. you're the one who made my spirit but also sadness in the same time. {10}

    Sunday, March 6, 2011

    Devian.

    Assalamualaikum ukhti akhi, para pembaca (pengen banget dibaca deh da-_- padahal gak mutu)
    gua kembali bukan untuk menggalau, ohiya cuma pengen menghibur diri hmmmm GUA AKAN BERUSAHA, MELUPAKAN BLOG YG BIKIN GUA GALAU TERSEBUT. dan SI EMPU-NYA BLOG. daaaaan berhenti berharap seperti lagunya Marcell. daaaaaaaan agak melenceng dari topik utama gapapa kan ya? maaf ya. hm OI KALO DISANA GUA JUGA BAKAL MINTA TANDA TANGAN LO OI!!! gila ya makin eksis aja lo disana, gua semakin miris ckck lo pasti disana makin banyak penggemar ye AAAAAAA ENVY BGT!
    *oke da stop da* *sigh*

    udeeh ah daripada ntar galau lg sedih lg najis lu da cengeng bgt-___- ayo kita simak cerita gua yg lain aja :D

    jadi beginilah kehidupan gua. well setelah mengalami galau tingkat kodok terbang ke pluto *behh tinggi bgt kan pemirsa?* *berarti gua galaunya bukan parah lg* *ahelah yauda sih penting amat lo curhat gitu da-_---*
    pertengahan februari kemarin sampai awal gua full hang out terus.
    dan duit pun mengalir udah kaya apaan tau, dan herannya... ngalir sih ngalir entah itu rejeki dateeeeeng mulu haha alhamdulillah, ya tapi duitnya kepake juga, gak sempet ditabung (emang pernah gitu da lo nabung?) *iye gua tau emg gak pernah*
    sungguh remaja devian. ckck

    1.  dimulai dari pergi observasi biologi di Kebun Raya Bogor, pada tanggal 21feb2011.

    pemandangan yg sangat mengganggu bukan? seorang cewek dengan pose najongnya, sambil nyengir kaya kuda

    ok to be honest, ini mah kebanyakan foto-fotonya ketimbang belajar biologinya-_- hehehe biasalah namanya juga remaja wkwk.-____- *timpuk truk gandeng*
    dibumbui dengan banyak intrik, dari mulai berantem cuma gara-gara angkot-_- eh yg berantem bukan gua dan CBBRS loh yah. kami mah cinta damai '-'V

    NB: CBBRS dahulu bernama GOSOS, dan bukanlah suatu geng atau kelompok semacamnya. cuma teman sepermainan yg kebetulan emang sering jalan bareng dan kebetulan juga satu kelas.


    2.  next,  Birthday Party Treat-nya Danastri Cintantya hehehehe (23feb2011)
    INI DIA BEST COUPLE CEWEK X-E : INTAN feat. TALITHA. *bukan, kami sama sekali bukan pasangan lesbi. lagian kasian intannya kalo lesbi sm gua-_-*

     ceritanya kita mo bikin surprise buat si intan, eh tapi malah gagal gitu haha. gara-gara zara ngilang dan nyasar, gak tau jalan ke TIS SQUARE. alamak-_-" trus kue yg dibawa zara juga amburadul, duh kesian juga si zara ye naik motor sendirian gitu. maap ye tan gak sukses surprise nya, mana kuenya juga kita-kita juga yg makan hehe peace nengbro '-'V

    3. terakhir, pada 4maret2011 gua, Nadya Nur Kusumo, Chandrika Gayatri, dan juga bersama si hulk --> Binnur Sakti, spend our time together at JJF :)
      Chandrika, Nadya, and...... me
     ini si Binnur. kerjaanya ngilaaaaaang terus, suka lepas dari barisan. berasa jadi babysitter bgt nih, kemana-mana harus jagain makhluk satu ini. mana pas nonton Sondre Lerche HPnya pake ilang segala


    menyenangkan sekali nonton JJF ya, alhamdulillah bgt lah. yg gua tonton cuma fourplay, brian culbertson, apalagi deh tuh gua lupa hmmm sondre lerche, blp, calvin jeremy, aduh dll lah.  walaupun gak dapet Endah N' Resha karena Hall nya khusus 18th keatas. dan Sondre Lerche nya rame pisan, desek-desekan jadi gua gak nonton ampe abis, langsung ngejar BLP. tapi subhanallah Marcell nya pooool dari awal sampe abis haha gila bgt dah tuh manusia ganteng-_-" nyanyinya menghayati bgt, apalagi pas lagu Candu Asmara.. beeeehhh aduh ntar deh gua upload videonya menyusul yaaa.
    tapi bete nya gak sempet foto banyak2, first...gua gak bawa kamera. daaaan hanya bisa mengandalkan BB chandrika&nadya saja. ya tau diri lah masa iya gua foto banyak bgt di hp orang-_- 
    ohiya sebenernya juga malem itu rada kelabu coy, galau pisan! siapa lg kalo bukan.........ngegalauin si bassis berkacamata tersebut. padahal gua berharap banyak atas kedatangan dia, biasanya dia selalu nonton JJF dan selalu 3 days. tp entah kenapa tahun ini (dan kebetulan saat gua juga dateng)  dia malah gak dateng. oh well.... itu sudah kehendak Tuhan ya :')
    *jujur gua sebenernya bukan seorang jazz-ers (?) iya, gua cuma penggemar segala musik kecuali dangdut ya*


    jadi intinya, gua sangat atau bahkan terlalu sering hang out akhir-akhir ini. tapi sedih bgt karena giliran pas mau ketemuan sama Kecebong adaaaaaaaaa aja halangannya. terakhir gua cuma ketemuan sm eldi jumat lalu di Sevel Matraman dan sisanya ngabisin waktu seharian dengerin curhatan dia-_-"
    maaf bgt ya Kecebongkuuuuu aku juga kangen bgt sama kalian, tp mungkin emang belom bisa ketemu. selain duit gua jg udah abis hahaha trus juga bentar lg mau UTS, nyokap udah ngomel-ngomel terus :(

    ehiya kalo dipikir-pikir juga, sama sekali gada latar dan alesan gua buat galau atau merasa pathetic. look out girl! gila lo! banyak banget disini temen-temen lo yg sayang sm lo, BANYAK! jadi buat apa mikirin cowok? buat apa galau? ckck. ayo elda there's a whole world around us just waiting to be explored! :D

    ok, me, Talitha. SIGN OUT.