FᴙanktiscallitY.

honestly, I often feelin' like this.. confused, anxiety, thrill, grinning, suddenly crying, but also happy in the same time. okay, let say it in simple sentence.. "I'm in love"

but as usual, when I'm in love... it rarely ending with... "happiness"

is it wrong if I'd wishing I'll have a mate (boyfriend) in my birthday? coz I've been single for almost 1 year.

at least, I wish my "gebetan" or someone I like will more closer w/ me.

I want Katya!

coz believe it or not, so far I had through my senior high school time.. I've never been so close w/ any boy, even in my class. poor me. therefore, I'm fallin' love easily with Katya.

and fortunately I adore him since semester 1. but previously,  I just adore him. then now it changed into more.

I even still remember our conversation. oh my God... I'm afraid if I really really fall in love w/ you.

cause I knew it will be hurt me so bad.

you'll never notice me...  an ordinary girl who not pretty, not smart & not rich. I'm nothing.

and now I missing you so much. time together just for 5 days isn't enough.  it felt weird when suddenly I had to be alone......

I have to through my holiday without seeing you there... I'm used to be always seen you come late to school. and now? I can't.

I'm afraid if I see you again next time in school, you're acting like you don't know me :'-{

please, I'm begging you... I wish we will always be in good relationship.

and before I had too much hoping you'll be mine, I have to stop those love struck.

cause I barely loved you.... and I don't want to be the one who will be hurt.